He is so faithful!!!!!

Once again I have laid it all down at his feet and he has given me the peace I have prayed for! We were very hopeful we would get our TA and leave this Friday (tomorrow!) Monday came and went and I knew TAs do not come on Tuesdays very often. Tuesday was the last day we could have gotten it and left on Friday. I was really heart broken Monday, I cried lots of tears. I am getting worn down. Living not knowing if you will be here or leaving for a long trip out of the country is stress enough then add an adoption and praying it would fall on spring break so the boys would not have to miss all that school and drag homework to China, not planning Easter now planning it last minute. It has my shoulders and neck in knots!
But when I was at the point I did not think I stand this for one more minute he came and gave me peace! I read from my bible each morning and I have the best devotional "Jesus Calling by Sarah Young" I think I would be in a padded cell if I did not do this! I know he has the day picked out and I know it will work out better His way than my way and yet when it did not happen when I thought it would work out the best my human emotions took over. And then I cried out to him in prayer and laid it all at his feet. He put the right people in my path and gave me the peace I asked for. YES I still can hardly wait to get on that plane and meet my sweet pea. But I feel the Lord today. Will I stay focused on him and not let the stress and disappointment take over tomorrow ??? I dont know but he held me above water today!
I have heard there may be some TAs in the mail that may come tomorrow or Monday!!! I am praying ours is one of them!!!! Monday will be 4 weeks waiting for TA the average is 23 days and the agencies say 1 to 4 weeks so we are due!!!!
I am almost positive we will be leaving some time this month!!! If TA does not come soon it may be April 30th, but it is this month!!!
It was last April that I cried many tears about all the children we had prayed for to love and the adoption process. It was May that we first saw our beautiful daughters picture. and so it might be May that we bring our Lily home! I titled my Blog because of this. Not that I thought it would One year later and April tears would bring my May Flower(Lily)!!!!
I never thought it would have taken this long... I thought Feb or March?????
It is in His time not mine!!!!